If Ever I Have Loved You
A poem that goes out to all the folks I've loved before.
Know that this poem is about you. Know that even if I've let you go, there's a part of me that will always wonder what we could have been. There's a version of us that wanders the multiverse, holding hands, laughing freely, because in that reality, you didn't belong to someone else first, and I was brave enough to do something about it. Know that every story is about you. That when I am giddy about my favorite ships, I'm dreaming of all the fics where it got to be us. There's a future somewhere we'll never get to live where we're the last of them, feeding each other strawberries at the end of the world, and getting the privilege of dying in each other's arms. Know that every verse is about you. That when I read poetry, you're the one I'm imagining between the lines, when Shakespeare said, "my bounty is boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite…" its like he knew I'd come along one day and feel that for you. Know that every dream is about you. That when I go walking the paths of my minds memoryscape & across bridges of what ifs & maybes, we got to be in the kind of love that all of creation falls still for. Know that this moment is about you, too. That if ever I have loved you and these are verses that reach you, that this instant belongs to you, and who I am is forever changed because I was blessed enough to have loved (and lost) you.
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